Email from God?

Wouldn't that be the best? I sure wish He would join in on this thing called email so I could talk to him and ask him all of my questions. But then, I guess praying doesn't involve typing, so that part is a plus, right? It's just hard when you don't hear back right away.

That is my current situation, and I often wonder what God is up to. I've been praying about many things lately, and it seems I'm in a holding pattern, once again. My personality and lack of patience aren't so good with these times in my life. So, I guess God is just sharpening my skill set. hmm.

Just this week alone, I received two birth announcements in the mail from friends who each just delivered their third baby. THIRD!! I often feel so far behind the game. I don't want to be an old Mom. But then, I have discovered recently that because I do have a young child and only one, that people often think I'm in my 20's. That's right, 20's. Let's go with that. Work it...own it. Better keep using that under eye cream.

And sure, I can joke about it all day long, but in the end, I just want to know if we are going to end up a family of 3 or a family of 4. Possibly more? Most likely not. Only God knows. I just want to be past this point in my life. I want to be past the holding pattern, the waiting, the uncertainty, the treatments, the cryopreservation, and the thought process that goes along with ALL of that. If this is it, then send me a message, and I will pray that my heart will become content.

In the meantime, my heart is filled with the blessing of this sweet face

Thanks, God. I'll be waiting to hear from you again soon!